Saturday, 17 December 2011


In that way how it takes over-
whelms the forefront brain

daily functions fail flat face-
first it's what are you doing

where are you who are you
with why aren't you here, here

you always yesterday smile
ambiguously a body tight hug

thinking would you could I de-
clothe you in more than head-

first question skinkissed then in-
side to each others' sides

be us just us just desires' sigh
lent breath cooling skinshine.

Sediment Sentiments

The day was warm with a windy cold
airbrushing our faces; the sun drying
its rays in our eyes through fronds
of grass and cool sea on sandy feet.

We grabbed a stick of salt-rimmed
carbon, and wrote in the particles
of tumbled time, tanned as ageless
as our sentiments in the sediment.

Inductees of Schrute; our initials
pencilled down and frozen in frame
as hickeys rose; before the cloth
of the sea made it all flat again.


When they ask the question why,
and they look into our eyes,
when we tell it to them straight
with our hearts in our mouths.

Love can cross an ocean,
its borders ill-defined
and we'll stain the waters red
with the blood of mankind,
to find each others' bed.

Is it beetroots, Mrs Schrute,
or an abstract of ideas,
we harvested our taco love
with shells of tortillas.

Love can cross an ocean,
this depth of purgatory,
and we'll stain the waters red
with the blood of insanity,
to reach each others' bed.

When dreaming is no more,
the destination here,
the horizon of our life
together will be near.

Love can cross an ocean,
on transatlantic flights,
and we'll stain the waters red
with the blood of fading nights
to say what must be said.

Friday, 25 November 2011

To the Young in Black

There is in me the blood and the meat;
this skintight force of breath and light
that in breathing, breathes, in breathing, beats,
the perpetual machine unwinding tight.
Born on rewind we spool apart
our entangled ribbons of hearts and hands,
playing the play and repeating the start,
each dawn is secondhand.
Until death - we uncouple,
before the last uncoupling,
wherein the heat of meat turns cool,
with breath unwound departing.

Thursday, 17 November 2011


The pen leaks all over the page as
usual ink cradles the dentures
pregnated molecular frozen rivers of
nothing this far in, far out this nothing
seen and sent and understood by
readers my stress de-valued unspun
into an ocean I cannot reel in or
frame this as is more garble than
sense, like life entangled threads of
thought, she is missed more than other

Wednesday, 5 October 2011

Slow Suicide

"For all we know it's just a lie,
scare your son, scare your daughter."

Invulnerable delusions
sparsely seen
curl heaven-wards, words of
ash, grey flowerbeds
climbing blue veins
buds fed on oxygen suck light
pluck petals from twisted thorns
on branches of blood and air.

An horizon nears with each puff
the tar on the road thick black
thicker blacker
pedestrians crossing sticking
brothers, sisters, fathers, mothers, daughters,
just crossing pedestrians
thicker blacker
with each puff
an horizon nears

of vulnerability
delusions reality of pain
a slow blue-faced suicide
wintry sympathy buried in the
ash, poisoned water
salted falters falls fails
to breathe, anger tainted tears
full branches of blood and air.

Friday, 30 September 2011

Higher Numbers

It's not mortgages or jobs
responsibilities or children
- achieved with the detachment of inevitability;

the material implements of age
checked off
- that's another XP level reached -

like the games we play online
with other 'kids'

- it's our hands becoming strangers',
wrinkles around childhood friends' eyes.

Wednesday, 29 June 2011

Blossom Falls

The blossom falls,
the people walk
through canopies of pink rain,
soft-touching against skin,
down cheeks, across blind eyes;

brick on brick on earth,
asphyxiating slabs of stone, a hard sheet
for the duvet of colour above it,
as their soles stamp upon the nothingness of it;

like the truth
of our evolution from that hairy unclothed ape,
like the tails of beach-wind
from off the adjacent sea whispering to your spine;

the grassy runners
stapled down in aesthetic squares dark-
light that could grow long to tease
their skin as they lie and roll unclothed absorbing

sun, that Vitamin D, preferably
miles from urbanity to better health,
but cotton and wool covers them,
the petals stick in pockets.

And they stare as I had stared at them,
looking with shame upon my naturalness,
but they don’t feel that pink rain,
soft-winded and swept against
my hairless skin.

Six Weeks

     No ‘and a half’ for us,
and three weeks short,
     the calendar of May and June
a black hole condensed under
our mutual weight, of sweat on skin,
sweet kiss sorties lost in light;

I cannot see from this event horizon
     how time got lost;
proof of it is memorised in balls of clothing,
the plaid bag and vinyl art we made together;
     what charity-shop finds couldn’t fit home,
a robe left behind in a wardrobe.

     Starfished in my bed,
planked on the sofa, thrusting in the kitchen;
here air you have parted, air we have shared,
     and if the glimpses of scent turn inwards,
I will still discern in places our six weeks,
and remember there will be more.

Monday, 27 June 2011

Film Review: Sucker Punch

Synopsis: Therapy sessions save a troubled girl from her woes, with guns and swords and explosions.

Zack Snyder's (300, Watchmen) new film, Sucker Punch, has the stylised hallmarks of his previous work while also trying to stay outside of the box. He succeeds. This film has divided critics and viewers because it is a story shown rather than a story told. This means every individual can get something different from it depending on how much they are willing to think about it.

If you follow the visuals and plot loosely, then it is about Babydoll (Emily Browning) who is institutionalised after an accident shown at the start of the film. The rest that follows is either a straight forward escape story with fantasy fight sequences, or an analogy of the various therapy sessions that Babydoll undertakes, depending on how you view it. One issue is that Snyder doesn't give the viewer the 'payoff' like at the end of, say, Fight Club, when we get to see Norton and Pitt at arms. Snyder is asking us to work it out ourselves.

So it is for you to decide how much you want to take from it. That's not to say it is an amazing film even if you can and do work it out. Visually, the girls are pretty and the action sequences are top-notch and play to modern notions of popculture with nazi-zombies, orcs and artificial intelligence. These action sequences, on the surface, do not further the plot or characterisation, so at first you might wonder what their purpose is. It's open to interpretation, but is probably a therapeutic device used by Babydoll to escape her reality. However, when these sequences appear, Babydoll is already in a 'dream' she is using to escape her actual reality, so these then become 'dreams-within-dreams'. One interpretation is that these are used to escape the physical abuse of the institution, and not only is she escaping the abuse, but so are we, the viewer, preferring instead to watch the exciting popculture action.

Carla Gugino, who plays the therapist/dance instructor, is the best actress in the film and lends her character sympathy when she realises she is just as trapped as the other girls. Abbie Cornish, Jena Malone, Vanessa Hudgens and Jamie Chung are all convincing as the girls who join Babydoll's crusade, and the fun they're having is especially evident in the action sequences; one of the most enjoyable being the crushing of the nazi-zombies fuelled by steam. The imagination evident in this film makes it worth watching, even if you're not looking to think too much.

7.5 / 10

Pt 3: City with late lights for the kids

eyes to the pavement
where I want to rest my inner ear
from the drumming tarmacadam chorus
and be blind to shop-lit concrete, porous
to the rainbow lasers in the beer,
bare feet on cement

even as I try to sleep,
as those in sleeping bags succeed,
I see both of you amongst the other kids,
holding on as though I somehow undid
the slab-cracks and tore the weeds,
tied them round feet
and neck.
On one side,
droplets of your blood
in a descending trail to basements,
impulses of light pierce releasing head-colours,
eyelids stammer and eyelashes flick each others,
unfocussed with fake contentment
and confusion stood
On the other,
in neon you found food
in my bins, and a bed on my bench.
Tonight you saw how I could lead you astray;
Huddled , you slept, so I hustled a doorway
of my own to sleep and change,
from one daily feud
to another.

Friday, 24 June 2011

Pt 2: A distant town, distant from everything

Your feet pound my roads and pavement
running through the night and underpasses,
in convex mirrors you can see around the corners
roadblocks of drugged carcasses.

Hands held and held high like children,
you swing from my arms past stop signs,
past eyes asking where can you be going
and can we come with you this time.

On the outskirts of town the shadows start
to wring your feet dry of pace,
they stumble in my underarms where things
start to grow and the blue lights lose the race.

More than small, you’re fading,
a distant darkness in this distant town.
It is so much quieter now that you have gone,
in the canal are the whispers of the drowned.

Thursday, 23 June 2011

Pt 1: Town with a canal and nothing else

This morning I watched you watch your reflection
in the canal and the one with long hair join you.
It was dry but cool and the seats of your trousers
got damp, but you didn’t care – just stared at the view.

All morning you sat as the dog-walkers passed by
with the dogs’ noses barely sniffing for your scent.
You held each other and sometimes tossed stones
causing the surface to ripple its dissent.

By noon the sun had burned the clouds and the sky
was the colour of your eyes, reflecting in the water.
I saw what it was in her’s that made her sorry
she was here, a ghost of her parents’ daughter.

I listened to you talk of birds and rain, nothing
in particular, talk like dandelions caught in the hand;
words afloat invisible to your eyes, wrapping around
clutched fingers, squeezing, trying to understand.

I have seen you both before around here and there
and sometimes you’ve been in groups or alone,
in town, resting on shop windows or
waiting to be asked what it is you have stole.

Sometimes to stay dry, in the Rowland Hill centre,
you kiss to pass the time away as others stare
but pretend they do not see you, pretend
it’s this illusion meant to make them care.

You roll now onto stomachs with your heads turned
inwards. Parts of me shuffle by unheard, unseen,
wearing coats, grey or black; there two footsteps
and the round indentation from a cane in-between.

All day you lie and no-one says a word,
the phone in the canal and you two strangers,
who can speak without speaking and know how to look
behind the other’s shoulders for oncoming dangers.

I hear your names spoken in whispers in secret,
with all the town looking for some time to kill;
in cars and in doorways, street corners and shops,
I hear the blue bells ringing down Bewdley Hill.

So you stand to run away, and in standing see
you can see a little further and rise a little taller;
ankles and wrists exposed where cloth can’t reach,
you feel the air around them as I watch you get smaller.

Wednesday, 15 June 2011


Of all these years we stayed
up late with dreams of false futures,
drinking last drinks by dim glows
from television sets, telling us what to do.

Of our courses have collided.
Are the once-imagined lives still alive,
budding on another tree?
Bearing fruit like ours?
Or were they mirrors of insanity?

Of glass words from lovers' mouths and ours.

Of fake foundations in hearts and homes,
existing only in our heads and easily slung.

Of all those years asleep in darkened rooms,
hedgerows, park benches and the backs of cars;
awake in offices and wards and corridors,
seeing ghosts that were never there.

Thursday, 9 June 2011

Film Review: Hobo With A Shotgun

Synopsis: Rutger Hauer. A shotgun. Blood, guts and pedophile Santas losing their brains, literally.

This is a filmed-in-technicolour bloody feast for the eyes. Colours are vibrant, full-on 70s b-movie trash. It looks in every way as though it was originally filmed for the drive-in theatre era, from the minimal credits to the shakey-zoomy amateur-style camerawork.

We follow the hobo (Rutger on fine vigilante form, despite his age) from the train's last stop, to find himself in helltown, where crime goes unpunished, the police are corrupt and the Drake runs the streets ("When life gives you razor blades... you make a baseball bat, covered in razor blades.") His sons, the larger than life goons, Slick and Ivan, aiming to prove they have what it takes to run the business. With the hobo meandering aimlessly with his trolley of worldly possessions, and dreams of lawnmowers and better times, it is not long until he is witness to the depravity crawling the streets, from public decapitations to other transients being paid to fight, to back-street clubs with torturing clientele. He has seen enough - it's time someone cleaned up the streets.

Cue the hobo and his shotgun. Cue mayhem, in a film devoid of a moral compass, with torched children and doctors mercilessly hung. It's pure fun for the desensitised discerning viewer, perhaps too much for those with a weak stomach - the kind of film Tarantino would've enjoyed growing up.
With over the top acting, crazy dialogue and jerky camerawork, this is not to be taken seriously, with violence for the sake of violence. Not for everyone. But if you like grindhouse cinema, you will enjoy this.

"I'm gonna sleep in your bloody carcass tonight."


Tuesday, 7 June 2011

Film Review: X-Men: First Class

Synopsis: The touching portrayal of young love between a magnetic man and a telekenetic egghead.

For the latest X-Men installment we venture into the past to explore the origins of Professor X (McAvoy), Magneto (Fassbender) and a selection of mutants. Directed by Matthew Vaughn (Kick-Ass) this film does indeed kick ass, blending action, storyline and characterisation, with standout performances from Fassbender, and particularly, McAvoy. His Professor X is confident without being cocky, possibly because of McAvoy's innate charm, but also the touching finale where he suffers the paralysis-inducing accident, "I can't feel my legs... I can't feel my legs..."

Fassbender broils as Magneto, one time friend then enemy of Professor X, who helps temper his friend's anger towards out-and-out baddie Sebastien Shaw (Bacon) - Magento's 'mentor' in the Nazi camp (a flashback to the metal gates being pulled apart harks back to the original). And Bacon is Bacon, and proves to be enough of a badass before his predictable demise.

The central plot revolves around Prof. X, Magneto and Shaw, but the secondary plot is also an interesting one, showing the birth of humankind's hot-and-cold relationship with the mutants in spectacular fashion, the two arcs coming satisfyingly to an explosive conclusion.

Fans will enjoy seeing the character arcs of the younger mutants, notably Mystique and the Beast, who both go through more than just their physical transformation. The other supporting mutants do a decent enough job, though Emma Frost's icy transformation always looks too CG. Wolverine makes a momentary appearance sure to raise a smile.

Matthew Vaughn is proving himself to be a talented director, combining action, drama and comedy elements into tightly drawn scripts with pitch perfect tone and tempo. For me, this was more enjoyable than the previous X-Men films, so fans will not be disappointed.


Monday, 6 June 2011


a hole in my eye and you spill in,
all your hair and teeth within,
nothing but strands being blinked away,
me falling in to the hole in your eye.

still, a whole decade of time, thrown words,
a canvas of scrunched paper behind you,
still, my eyes exhale and still, I intake,
you have become this moment's breath.
still - in all rivers of definitions
and with regatta at backs, seconds into years,
still, and glasses filling, molten lava,
our anonymous history above our heads,
still in the clouds, waiting to fall or pass
to hillsides distant, where this heart would stall.

still, it passes, as it will always go,
it rains until the eyes are full, ripples in the river,
so we empty ourselves and I wonder still,
how many years until...?

Friday, 3 June 2011


Hot on the heels of the monster trucks
and innumerable fucks; slices of Americana
in the stasis of minor deaths, blackout curtains drawn
against English summer storms of UV dreams;
I can still taste the States of love from scenes
played out, Miss America, Aprillene-
and dramas seem cloaked the size of Atlantic,
these last days frantic as we abstain from ache.
We are children living in a grown up world;
we whirl our pelvis, dervishes of bath-bomb glitter,
a hurricane littering skin and cloth and then,
when all out of something, something more is found,
in the territory of crossed borders, we cross each other,
bound by our mothers' internationalities,
together in a mutual insanity of words,
we are children living in a grown up world.

Wednesday, 1 June 2011

Central Worcester

Roads loop through the centre
with buses surging on the back
of blood, and feet step from pavements into
shops, knocked over by the businessmen
taking legs, lassos latched to ankles

off rails in windows, on mannequins
of muscle and slim lines.
Achilles tendons are taught;
on the back of blood bleeding from heels,
still the buses bring, engines singing.

The Church

The church filled up slowly with lies.
The stained glass windows were the first to go;
they became as night, though the sun still shone,
halos turned blood red and ran with sweat on stone,
dripped and tumbled into choir-boys' mouths as they sang.
Airborne, it spread, a dense desire
dancing on tongues; salt that popped like candy,
ascending ejaculates of amen spittling the air,
forming a fog that flagellated eyes to tears.
Humidity heightened, tightening collars and causing
clothes to cling to skin; people shrunk to fit them.
The stars and moon circled for two millennia above,
and still the lies flowed down walls and pews undammed,
a Great Flood rising to knees, to waists and necks,
siphoning through the cracks between the doors
to fill the outside world.
But on the 39th day there was a miracle;
the church doors opened and the lies flowed out,
bodies of the drowned floating on the tsunami,
children sputtering for air with their hair
plastered to their ears; inside, so much damage
had rotted the walls, the pews, the cross and crown of thorns.

Tuesday, 31 May 2011

Attack the Block - film review

Outline: Intergalactic bear-monkeys land in east London, UK, for a game of tag with tower-block dwelling disadvantaged youths. Aka An Introduction to 21st Century youthspeak.

The mood is set from the outset, the score reminiscent of favourite horror-comedies like gremlins, critters and lesser known gems like killer klowns from outer space. The tone continues throughout, and despite the modern setting and today's gang-culture language, succeeds in feeling retro. It may jump from comedic to horrific on occasion too quickly, but, for me, this enhanced its retro vibe. It is the imperfections that we often love about these types of films.

That's not to say this lacks polish. The aliens are unique and well-rendered and never feel fake. Their glowing teeth are eery. And the action scenes are well done, successfully combining action, tension and plenty of blood. First time director, Joe Cornish, will be justifiably pleased with his efforts, and looks to have a bright film-making future. With more experience, he will perhaps be able to avoid the clumsiness of the 'fog' scene where both the character and the audience becomes disoriented. But this does not detract from what is an exciting denoument.

As we follow the gang around their tower block, and the aliens follow them, there are obvious plot markers laid down, without subtlety, such as a jump a gang member cannot make, or the early explanation for the aliens' arrival. But this does not matter. It's about the chase, and how much fun you can have at the same time. And with a cast of relative unknowns (Nick Frost makes a typically laid back appearance, the antithesis of his more angry Spaced performances) the acting is very good throughout.

Overall, an entertaining watch, and worth the cinema admission fee. The only thing missing is two Critters-esque galactic bounty hunters wrecking havoc on an unsuspecting local community. Maybe in the sequel.


Thursday, 26 May 2011


of the post-cunt coma,
far-off Fuck near, fears
of chucking,
knee jabs cock, sun
blinds, bottles dry linear
voyeurs, knocked
by barefoot kicks.

to wet receiver, wet
kisses, hard grunts silent
loud springs, early morning
bird gets the worm,
cock jabs cunt, feet
in plates, dried curry
bottom of the bed.

Saturday, 21 May 2011

Dust on the Windowsill

What fires turn the insides out,
what ice tempers us;
if in our elemental state
this darkness masquerades as dust

on summer’s day windowsills,
buoyed on moving beams,
when our eyes are closed in union
this darkness is a seam

between our heat and cool
and our slick cementing pool
of radiation, circulating
behind four eyelids tightening.

What fires do we see in elation,
the patterns of the fallout in our minds,
our groins ensemble certainty of mutuality
bound in dual kind;

there are the flames of suns falling
behind a sea,
there are flickers of morning firelighters
crackling beneath dry wood.
There are embers glowing, sizzling
from the dribbling meat fat.
There are summers of blood red on the backs
of eyelids in the sun
and winters of candlelight and hearths.
There is an oven with a coffin,
and galaxies turning.

The ground frost cannot temper us,
as we lie above the earth,
it is our dew that binds the grass
to our skin on this Sunday’s birth.

So what ice will turn our outside in,
until our heart and mind is numb;
the pattern of your face on my retina
engrained, with eyes open it will come;

frozen sheets at the bottom of the bed,
melting ice cream tempting our teeth,
windshields with patterns crystallised
by the night,
virgin prints in snow trailing our steps,
snow-angels joined at the hip.
Skin cool to touch, dry,
dark energy pushing us to zero Kelvin.

What fires will turn our insides out,
what ice will temper us;
our chemistry seen on standstill days
is love within sunrays, dust on a windowsill.