Crave

It's too much, yet not enough
to sate my burning
eye-lust for you.
~~~~~~
Above an ankle sock
a flash of pink,
curves of skin unpeeling
to calves and knee-pit g-spots,
the range of thighs and butt
like a bronze sea
undulating its
wavy candleflame-
flesh, firm but giving
in my grasp, releasing pearls with my tongue
until I capsize, no air
beneath you.
From toe to head I drown.

From head to toe I drown
beneath you,
until I capsize, no air
in my grasp. Releasing pearls with my tongue-
flesh, firm but giving
-wavy candleflame
undulating- it's
like a bronze sea;
the range of thighs and butt
to calves and knee-pit g-spots,
curves of skin unpeeling
a flash of pink
above an ankle sock.
~~~~~
Eye lust for you
to sate my burning.
It's too much, yet not enough.

Pause

It's easy to start with something substantive,
for it's you;
you place your head on my chest
where your tears are laid to rest;

you smell of work
and bus stops, the premature night
in your conditioned hair, crescent
of frustrated grief.

I wish I could fast it forward,
I wish I could pause it all,
(30, 40, 50, 60,
when is old? A death expected?)

- here in our private darkness,
practicing the at-once universal
and inalienable personal
truth of truths; a fist smacks down

so I hold your shaking close,
closer, closest I've ever held;
and for a while I feel the tears meld
the seconds into hours,

our beats unify and slow,
slower, slowest I've ever felt;
and for a while our latticed fingers melt
the hours into years;

this could be now,
this could be then,
this could be it.

I See The Dead

Watching old films,
I see the dead;
Kissing on the screen,
White lips, grey eyes,

Hair of ash
And worms and earth,
Their essence breathed
Into breezes that connect

With one another,
Generations chained
By celluloid, burned
To dead pixels

Painting a future
With a past,
A past with a future,
An endless reel.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

I see the dead
Staring back at me,
There will be fire
In my pale blue eyes,

In my pale blue eyes
There will be no fire;
There will be a fire
Melting my pale blue eyes;

A fire, gas-blue,
Boxes of my image
And images of me
On paper, in light,

A digital fingerprint
Too, boxed, driven
Hard into memory
Like coffin nails -

Not too much heat, please,
And do not shake
Or drop me, I am
Susceptible to deletion.

New muse!!

Watch "Muse - Madness (Lyric Video)" on YouTube

Heathrow

Sitting by a window at Terminal 4,

I can feel the fuel at my feet

flow up through the legs of the seat

as it fills Delta’s snub-nosed belly.

Everywhere, everything rolls with this;

everything replacing something

like tides of internal pumping

in an external clockwork orange –

yes, I was reading but now I am writing;

of the strrrr-dump strrr-dump of wheels

riding tiled floors on prams and trollies

and undropped baggage to be crammed

as crammed as us into sections of gut;

we are molecules – we depart and die

in Heathrow’s exhaled sighs,

churning screams of turbine lungs.

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Then of the majestic grounded, stately

berthing with wheeling gates;

through the glass its size awaits,

an uncanny monster at rest.

Others roaming, roaring, rearing their heads

soon soaring into the distant clouds,

even as new alphas are inhaled,

to rumble and strip clean their bowels.

ChosenSpace - MMORPG - Space-Based Open RPG

After a time spent searching the internet for interesting MMORPG, Massively Multiplayer Online Role Playing Games to play which were based in space, I finally came upon Chosen Space. I am limited by the graphics on my laptop, so I am basically unable to play the likes of EVE and Star Trek Online, although the latter is still playable on the low graphics settings but looks like a first generation Playstation Game.

Now there are many space trading/fighting/mining/exploring games out there but I found I responded to Chosen Space the most. Its secret is in the simple gameplay which doesn't take forever to understand, while having enough depth to give you new experiences as and when you decide to take that course of action. The other and most important factor is the people. You can log into EVE or Star Trek Online and be surrounded by 10s to 100s of ships all bearing the names of the users, and it's a little overwhelming and unfamiliar, even after you have played it for a while. Quickly with Chosen Space the community takes you in - names become familiar, friends are made, especially when you join a faction which you should do from the outset. This game is browser based, text based, with grids and a few simple images to identify starbases, planets, ships, refineries, asteroids, manufactories etc so it is never going to be the visuals that pull you in - it's the people, the community and the gameplay. There is enough diversity to keep you interested, from running planets, leading factions, mining, lining, shooting, scouting, trading, with inter-faction wars and trades and allegiances - and it makes for a dynamic, if 2-dimensional universe.

Just take a look at their forum to see how much history is here; past wars, current wars and other events, with active daily discussions and banter. Furthermore the creator is still present, making amendments and improvements and listening to suggestions. It is this element of interaction which makes Chosen Space so addictive to play. There is genuine emotion to losing a ship to a rival player, or shooting him to pieces, getting that killing shot. It means more when the names mean something to you, whether side by side with a faction team mate, or aiming your disruptor at an enemy. Very little is anonymous here.

Some games suffer from the veteran/noob syndrome, and whilst it may be true that a vet will have the experience, there are no limitations on what you can possess. No XP levels. Once you're in, it's a level playing field. Join the right faction and you'll be rewarded with ship upgrades, whether you want to mine for ores, trade or defend their name. In this game, the factions look after their own.

So I can't recommend this game enough; if it's a space-based MMORPG you're looking for that you can easily access and play each day, or as you please, than look no further. If you click on this link to join, I receive 1000 points - join the United Systems Fleet and you can have that 1000 points (once you have been active for 30 days) - which can go towards owning your own ships and space outposts, rather than having them loaned to you from the faction. Remember, search United Systems Fleet in factions, or Frankthebunny in players, to contact us. We are waiting.

You

In that way how it takes over-
whelms the forefront brain

daily functions fail flat face-
first it's what are you doing

where are you who are you
with why aren't you here, here

you always yesterday smile
ambiguously a body tight hug

thinking would you could I de-
clothe you in more than head-

first question skinkissed then in-
side to each others' sides

be us just us just desires' sigh
lent breath cooling skinshine.

Sediment Sentiments

The day was warm with a windy cold
airbrushing our faces; the sun drying
its rays in our eyes through fronds
of grass and cool sea on sandy feet.

We grabbed a stick of salt-rimmed
carbon, and wrote in the particles
of tumbled time, tanned as ageless
as our sentiments in the sediment.

Inductees of Schrute; our initials
pencilled down and frozen in frame
as hickeys rose; before the cloth
of the sea made it all flat again.

Engagement

When they ask the question why,
and they look into our eyes,
when we tell it to them straight
with our hearts in our mouths.

Love can cross an ocean,
its borders ill-defined
and we'll stain the waters red
with the blood of mankind,
to find each others' bed.

Is it beetroots, Mrs Schrute,
or an abstract of ideas,
we harvested our taco love
with shells of tortillas.

Love can cross an ocean,
this depth of purgatory,
and we'll stain the waters red
with the blood of insanity,
to reach each others' bed.

When dreaming is no more,
the destination here,
the horizon of our life
together will be near.

Love can cross an ocean,
on transatlantic flights,
and we'll stain the waters red
with the blood of fading nights
to say what must be said.

To the Young in Black

There is in me the blood and the meat;
this skintight force of breath and light
that in breathing, breathes, in breathing, beats,
the perpetual machine unwinding tight.
Born on rewind we spool apart
our entangled ribbons of hearts and hands,
playing the play and repeating the start,
each dawn is secondhand.
Until death - we uncouple,
before the last uncoupling,
wherein the heat of meat turns cool,
with breath unwound departing.

Tangle

The pen leaks all over the page as
usual ink cradles the dentures
pregnated molecular frozen rivers of
nothing this far in, far out this nothing
seen and sent and understood by
readers my stress de-valued unspun
into an ocean I cannot reel in or
frame this as is more garble than
sense, like life entangled threads of
thought, she is missed more than other
thoughts.

Slow Suicide

"For all we know it's just a lie,
scare your son, scare your daughter."

Invulnerable delusions
sparsely seen
curl heaven-wards, words of
ash, grey flowerbeds
climbing blue veins
buds fed on oxygen suck light
pluck petals from twisted thorns
on branches of blood and air.

An horizon nears with each puff
the tar on the road thick black
thicker blacker
pedestrians crossing sticking
sinking
brothers, sisters, fathers, mothers, daughters,
sons,
sinking
just crossing pedestrians
thicker blacker
with each puff
an horizon nears

of vulnerability
delusions reality of pain
a slow blue-faced suicide
wintry sympathy buried in the
ash, poisoned water
salted falters falls fails
to breathe, anger tainted tears
full branches of blood and air.

Higher Numbers

It's not mortgages or jobs
responsibilities or children
- achieved with the detachment of inevitability;

the material implements of age
checked off
- that's another XP level reached -

like the games we play online
with other 'kids'

- it's our hands becoming strangers',
wrinkles around childhood friends' eyes.

Blossom Falls

The blossom falls,

the people walk

through canopies of pink rain,

soft-touching against skin,

down cheeks, across blind eyes;

brick on brick on earth,

asphyxiating slabs of stone, a hard sheet

for the duvet of colour above it,

as their soles stamp upon the nothingness of it;

like the truth

of our evolution from that hairy unclothed ape,

like the tails of beach-wind

from off the adjacent sea whispering to your spine;

the grassy runners

stapled down in aesthetic squares dark-

light that could grow long to tease

their skin as they lie and roll unclothed absorbing

sun, that Vitamin D, preferably

miles from urbanity to better health,

but cotton and wool covers them,

the petals stick in pockets.

And they stare as I had stared at them,

looking with shame upon my naturalness,

but they don’t feel that pink rain,

soft-winded and swept against

my hairless skin.

Six Weeks

     No ‘and a half’ for us,

and three weeks short,

     the calendar of May and June

a black hole condensed under

our mutual weight, of sweat on skin,

sweet kiss sorties lost in light;

I cannot see from this event horizon

     how time got lost;

proof of it is memorised in balls of clothing,

the plaid bag and vinyl art we made together;

     what charity-shop finds couldn’t fit home,

a robe left behind in a wardrobe.

     Starfished in my bed,

planked on the sofa, thrusting in the kitchen;

here air you have parted, air we have shared,

     and if the glimpses of scent turn inwards,

I will still discern in places our six weeks,

and remember there will be more.